One Year Ago Tomorrow....

John is at the church fair tonight with the kids...I was thinking back to when I went last year with the kids. John had the Flu (first case in Keller for the year!) so I was solo with the kids. People were asking me about my grandmother, and she had just died that afternoon, so I was having trouble keeping my emotions in place. I was tired emotionally and physically. And I was sad....

Tomorrow will mark the one year anniversary of my Memaw going to be with Jesus. As I looked back on my blog and read about my last real visit with her, it made me smile. Not a happy smile, but a smile of thankfulness that God gave me time that night all alone with her, and that she was lucid, that we laughed together and both told each other that we loved one another! One thing that I didn't put in there about that night was that I had to get on the phone to beg her doctor to give her something for the pain and he wasn't very nice, but agreed to a type of sedative, and when we talked to the Hospice nurse, she told us "now sometimes when patients are this close to the end and in pain, when given medication, they will drift off and just die peacefully and never regain consciousness." My thoughts were "oh crap, I just killed off my Memaw"....but she did come to again and was able to have some sweet fellowship with some of the other relatives.

If you took the time to click and read my Memaw post from last year, you will probably want to read THIS post so that you can end this blog reading with a chuckle!